Wow. It's been a while since I last wrote on the blog. We've been celebrating graduations and special events, having dinner with friends and attending receptions for the grads. It's been a busy couple of weeks. Fun and activity...going through the events of life...but while celebrating our life moments, I've forgotten to celebrate and praise the One who has granted us those life moments.
So I come. ...More like come back. Back, humbly, to the cross.
I've been going through the motions lately, and doing it all in my own time, at my own pace, when I felt like it. But I'm learning that I'm really missing out on Him. So, I'm trying to get back to Him, and I know that it's not something I can do quickly or instantly, or force, but it'll take time, discipline and much, much of the Word and prayer.
So where do I begin? Psalm 139. I watched a video on it today and it hit me that regardless of where I've been these last few weeks, or the lack of time I spent with Him, that He welcomes me back and that just as I am ready to Be Still, He is ready to continue leading, teaching, shaping, molding me into His image. When I listened to that psalm again today, I was moved by the Spirit. It was as if He was looking me in the eye, lifting up my chin to look Him back in the eye from my shameful position, and say, "I know. I'm still here. I'm not surprised that you've been preoccupied/gone/checked out/etc., I know those thoughts, I know everything about you, and I'm still here, and I still love you."
After watching the video I decided to go lay Isaac down for his nap and to spend some time in devotion and to reflect on who I am, and whose I am. I looked at the clock to see what time it was to know what time I layed him down. The clock read 1:39.
Thank You, Lord, for knowing me. For loving me. For leading me. For teaching me. For waiting for me. For not giving up on me. For guiding me. For finding me. And for the fact that I can rest in Your presence and lay my burdens at Your feet.
I looked up Psalm 139 in the version of The Message, and it sums it up quite well: